Okay friends, I know I have already shared some of my weight loss goals/journey with you, but I've decided to open myself up to you even further. Weight Watchers is working for me, but I had a couple of weeks where I stopped trying as hard, and even not counting those weeks, the weight loss isn't happening quite as fast as I want. I understand that if you want the weight to stay off, you have to lose it as a healthy weight. But I would love to be losing 2lb a week (WW recommends .5-2 a week) every week, instead of the .8 here or 1.6 there that I've been losing. Any loss is great, but I want to push myself a little harder.
Which is in part, where you come in. I don't know the people at my meeting, and none of them really know what weight I started at and what my goal(s) are. But I do know you, and I want you to know what my goals are so that I can be held accountable by the people I know really care about me. So, starting this week, there will be another page on this blog titled "My Weight Loss" where I will keep track of how much I've lost and what goals I am working towards. I don't know what all will end up there, but I want somewhere to keep track of these things where I won't be the only person to ever see it. I used to think by doing this I might open myself up to judgment. But the truth is, most of you won't be judging me for my highest weight, or if I have a bad week. Instead you'll just be cheering me on and motivating me to reach my goals, and I've decided I need that. Plus, I've realized that I can let go of my shame about being overweight, because guess what, I am working HARD to change that. And the fact that I finally admitted that something needed to be done and starting actually doing it...that is something I have every right to be really proud of. I am still really self-conscious about my weight. The thought of you all knowing what my starting weigh at weight watchers was is an unpleasant one to me, but I feel like it can help me to never get back to that point again.
Another way I'm motivating myself to do better is to challenge myself. I know I already set one goal for the summer, to reach my 10% goal by labor day. Sadly, I don't think I'll be reaching that goal (we'll see, I might, but it's doubtful) and I don’t want that failure to hold me back or keep me from making new goals. So I've already picked a new goal to start working on. I want to be at or below 200 pounds by my birthday, November 30. I have about 27 pounds to go to reach that point, and just over 16 weeks to do it in. That means I will need to be losing an average of 1.69 pounds a week. It won't be easy, but I really believe I can do it. Especially if you will all support me and push me to reach this goal. It was really hard on my self-esteem when I reached 200 in my weight gain, but it wasn't enough to make me finally change how I was living. I'm hoping that when I reach it going in the other direction, it will be a great boost of confidence to keep me going in the right direction.
Thank you so much for the support you've already offered me as I've worked to improve my life in this manner, and thank you in advance for the support I know you'll continue to offer.
